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Name: Jessica
Location: Missouri, United States
Birthday: 11/7/1984
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Thursday, January 03, 2008

Don't worry about the people from the past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future. saw that quote on a bumper sticker on facebook and i loved it. there's no reason for you to put effort into someone when they don't return the favor.

Job is amazing. I have decided he is a funny guy too. I am enjoying reading the whole book and to see how he feels. It's ok to feel that way.

I want to go into the darkness to bring it light. Give me a challenge. To reach people, I think you have to do something. So I am. God has taught me so much about being humble and respecting people, even if they aren't believers. I always did before, but then pride took hold. Start thinking subconsciously that I would never do that. Thing is..who are you to say it's wrong?

Never knew he could teach me so much about Him. It's nice to be respected.

I will never take this cross off. It means too much.

What's scary is when the non-believers act more like Christ than the believers.


Tuesday, January 01, 2008

"Temperance is, unfortunately, one of those words that has changed its meaning. It now usually means teetotalism… [In the past,] temperance referred not specially to drink, but to all pleasures; and it meant not abstaining, but going the right length and no further. It is a mistake to think that Christians ought all to be teetotalers; Mohammedanism, not Christianity, is the teetotal religion.

Of course it may be the duty of a particular Christian, or of any Christian, at a particular time, to abstain from strong drink, either because he is the sort of man who cannot drink at all without drinking too much, or because he is with people who are inclined to drunkenness and must not encourage them by drinking himself. But the whole point is that he is abstaining, for a good reason, from something which he does not condemn and which he likes to see other people enjoying. One of the marks of a certain type of bad man is that he cannot give up a thing himself without wanting every one else to give it up. That is not the Christian way. An individual Christian may see fit to give up all sorts of things for special reasons—marriage, or meat, or beer, or the cinema; but the moment he starts saying the things are bad in themselves, or looking down his nose at other people who use them, he has taken the wrong turning."

—C.S. Lewis. Mere Christianity, p. 78-79

Humm, dont think I can add anything to that. CS Lewis just says it all.


Thursday, December 27, 2007

sooo I forgot to put in my last note that I will be down the 4th.

I was watching Stardust (awesome movie that I got for Christmas) and I thought of something when the chick was talking. She said:

"You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no fits. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine."

The part from "feeling it in her chest" and after that? That's how God's love feels for me. People are always wanting more...more this or that....but I am determined to stay strong in the fact that all I need is trust in His love. That's it. I won't ask for blessings or material things God....please just always love me. Please. Because if You won't.....I might as well not exist..

And this is also how God talks to us...I can hear Him saying,"I'd wish for nothing in exchange...." He just wants you to let Him love you. You don't have to change....in fact He made you who you are and that person you are supposed to be and long to be? That is who you will become in Him. He just wants your heart.

Why do people search so hard...feel a need deep within them? Just a thing that evolved in us? I like to think I am something more....something special.

I know I didn't happen by chance. I am here with a purpose. So are you.

It's ok to be scared....


Thursday, December 20, 2007

my newest question

why do Christians segregate themselves from non-Christians?  The very people we want to save and share Christ with, we are avoiding.  To a non-Christian I believe this looks bias and degrading and unwelcoming. 

Just an idea I got from a book I am reading. 

I hate to say that I segregate myself as well.

Funny joke:
Why don't you make like Jesus and get the hell out of here!
(I heard it from my sissy's finance, funny guy.)
I laughed alot...once I got it...haha


Tuesday, December 18, 2007

snow is beautiful. It makes people have to stay at home. Why do most people hate it? cause they can't drive in it. I think it's one of God's ways to tell us to slow down, take time to relax and be with people we love.

Thank God for snow.

I just burnt my tongue on some cherry mash...



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